center of new york

finally, i am doing something worthwhile..going sightseeing in new york!!drove downtown to see this significant place(almost significant, to me!)..i know it is only a station, its a wall street station

then, i went to this trinity church...this church is not that amazing compared to the pictures i saw during art history..i can't believe this class taught me something..taking this class really made me enthusiatic about gothic churches..

as we walked further down the road,i saw glittering lights...huge christmas tree and beside it is the american flag..i give a thumb up for creativity!!

after that i was asked a question..the bull or the bear means that the market shares goes up...i really did not know that shares means bull or bear!!i took a guess but it was wrong...the correct answer is...the so-called significant bull!!!i wonder what is the connection though?bull= market share up=no connection!!

subsequently...i saw the statue of US first elected president...george washington!!!

lastly, i visited the site where the world trade center collapsed during sept 11...a very tragic event....but now everybody is regrouping and the site is currently under development..the construction is up...i heard rumours that there are some bones down below the earth which just send shivers down my spine...i will always remember this day.my dad told me that the wtc collapse and i thought he was joking...but when i looked at the tv, and that building collapsed.i knew that it was not a joke...that is the site..

*looking down and remembering the ones that were sacrificed and risked their lives to recover dead...my heart goes with you forever*

what a wonderful day...this is what i like best!!

getting to new york

this is really a tiring day..from dayton to new york!!!firstly,we took the taxi at 330am and reach dayton airport at around 530am...to our utmost despair, the flight got cancelled and we waited until 848pm to catch the flight...because our flight was not a direct flight, we had to make some transit stop..detroit airport!!!we nearly missed our flight but luckily this guy was so kind and inform the officers to let us in!!thank god...entering the plane was a whole new scenario, people stared at us like one kind..geezz!!we are ordinary people who almost missed the plane..that is not weird right?

*still no sleep except catching winks*

reaching la guardia airport(new york),our baggage got misplaced....so we just took a taxi to koko heng leong apartment...we were almost starving hence we took the train...gosh, new york is so big and scarry!!to me, all the streets looked the same, except for different shops!!the subways here is so confusing.....unlike the one back home!!i swear i will get lost here, definitely!!!then, we went to nyonya restaurant,at last malaysian restaurant!!!but the assam laksa is so bad...ko dongyeun ate with us too..next we went for another maze in the subway..another headsore!!let's do not talk about that...

afterwards we went to eat vietnam food...it was magnificent!!after that,koko heng leong picked up margaret and we went back to the apartment!!what a tiring day..city is not a good place to live in...try imagining bukit bintang except you multiply it by 50 times...that is what new york is!!!nevertheless, it is a good experience...at last city life again!!!

enchanted

at first i thought this movie will another kind of disney movie where the storyline will be simillar like all the disney movies we see but this one is really special.enchanted really exceed my expectations with a combinations of scenes from past Disney movie like Cinderella and Snow White..the synopsis of this story is when this this princess falls down from Andalusia into the streets of New York and meet the man of her dreams...
from this movie, i learned a valuable lesson...that love is not complicating at all...it is so easy that we make it sound so complex.if only everyone is like a shining star, waiting to find a place in someone arms and then sparkle in the heavens together for eternity..this is the true meaning of happily ever after...after watching this movie,i believe that fairytales do come true for everyone and we will all find our special someone one day soon...i know it may sound cheesy but at least i have that enchanted spirit within me..

snow experience

1st snow experience
this might not be your first time but to me it is my first time!!!yup, you are right..snow!!it was hard to wake up in the morning(as usual) but with all my might, I carried myself up and prepared myself. then had breakfast downstairs....somehow I was a bit later than usual!!
I glazed outside and saw frosted snow everywhere...woohoo!!!the weather forecast was quite accurate...but i asked the question..isnt it too early for snow??perhaps global warming do affect the climate.everywhere was icy white!!!but I felt that this is not the time of the season to be making snowman and having snow ball fight!! The time will come, definitely!!!

This is what my hall look like..pretty amazing don’t you think??it will definitely set the mood for christmas with that wonderful tree beside it!!!

While walking to class...I made a few stops to take photographs!!!well not actually taken by me...its actually cara's camera!!!;)

Today valuable lesson….next semester will be a LONG LONG semester..with freezy, chilly weather!!! And I have 8am class which makes it even worse…braving through the snow storm for class will be my most challenging and difficult task...waking up is a different matter altogether...

SnoW...SnoW & MoRE SnoW...

weather forecast for tomorrow??sUnNy...

snow ball

somehow i didnt know about snow ball until the day i came back from joel's place...i didnt have shoes or tie, i didnt iron my clothes..i practicaly had nothing done!!luckily,i brought hair gel since my hair is super long now!!i really need to cut it though...its getting on my nerves!!coincidently, Wen had to go to Dayton mall to accompany her sister for something...i decided to ask her to buy me leather shoes.all went as i planned but you will never know what lies beneath fate..Wen returned buying the wrong size, when i wore the shoe, it looked as though i am MacDonald wearing the big shoe..but i had no choice!!

i also missed watching the Enchanted with Dongyeun and friends because i had to STUDY!!yea, so called study, writing 2 papers means studying to me...finals is one week to go and i am unprepared!!

luckily, my dearest sister and a.k.a fashion critic was going to work at alexander and so she stopped by to give me some comments/criticism..as usual she got angry with my half of the room..practically everything she saw was bad for her eye..i endured all her scolding but got away with a tidy bed and room..she returned from work and she began her expertise with her dress sense...finally, i was ready for the ball and she returned back to her apartment!!

the snow ball was a blast..below are some pictures

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happy thanksgiving

this thanksgiving will be so memorable for me.my roommate joel is the best roommate i ever had.he invited me, julian and angus over to his house. he has a wonderful family that makes us feel like home here. he has two dogs, but i love the golden retriever the most. he might be scarry sometimes but he is very friendly. he just wants attention and someone to pat him. it seems like we are going to drink starbucks everyday because joel need to drop his brother off for work. today,all we did was sleep, eat and homework. i realised that this time the art exam will be so hard because there are so many things to study and mesmorize. this is a hard subject. moreover, i completed my zoology extra credit assignments today itself.i am surprise by myself that i actually finished all my homework. well, there is one more major paper to do but it can wait though.
even though i am enjoying this thanksgiving break but my heart wanders sometimes. i tried my best to forget about it but it is really hard. i keep on thinking about 45 east at uptown. i repeated the same mistake as before. the first one was supposed to be a lesson for me but it turned out that i did the exact same thing. maybe its just me who feels that way. maybe we are just destined to be friends..i really give up now and think i think i will move on. there is a saying..."The love we give away is the only love we keep.". i feel that way now and will be that way forever.
it is very late at night now. i am looking forward when i wake up in the morning. i will indulge myself with the food on the table. i bet the food will be delicious and superb!!i cant wait until tomorrow!!

"HApPy ThAnKsGiVinG"

what a day

today was an unusual day for me.. when eng 109 was over, i was going to the art class. out of no where, i saw blood on the floor.and it was so much...i nearly freaked out because i haven't seen so much blood before except in movies or news. luckily,i was cool with it.then, i realise that the blood was one of my friends, ling. his nose bled so much that professor julia ward had to take him to the health services center. i think his nose stopped bleeding when he stepped foot inside. he was inside for a long time. jerry and I fell asleep while waiting for ling.an hour passed, and ling came out looking fine. thank god for that.
next was my work shift...i was already late for work at alexander.this job is very new to me because i have not work there before. there was so many different kinds of bread, wrap, and especially cheese. it make the work even more confusing.time moved so fast that i my shift ended.i was out of there.i packed my bags and went up to my room.i studied for awhile and then took a nap. it was time for dinner when i woke up at 1745. went downstairs again and saw anthony working my shift for me.he was making stir-fry shrimp salami. after eating, went uptown for an "extra credit" class.then, stopped by starbucks to have a mocha. come to think of it, its been so long since i last went to uptown. actually this is the only place where Miami go to for leisure and party.
at least, it was a exciting day for me. maybe tomorrow will be too, who knows??

goggin ice rink

this is the first time i went for ice skating, actually ice skating is simillar to roller blading but its more fun and you do not sweat a lot!!this place is really nice and big, the best part is that not many people go to the ice rink cause they prefer to go uptown for drink and partying!!i bet sunway pyramid will be packed on a saturday night...no doubt about that!!we had practically the whole rink to ourselves, aditya, zora, and his small bro, julian, angus, and me!!not forgetting a few unknown people.at first, i skated at the side of the rink cause i was too scared to go overboard and i will fall down...but after getting used to the art of skating, i was braved enough to skate at the center of the rink!!
skating is simillar to a baby taking its small steps towards learning how to walk.the first steps you take you definitely will fall down. but you arise after each fall and try again..life is about a process of living, its about a combination of states that we live in. ice skating teaches me something very useful and benefited me in some ways...while i was skating, i knew the basics but i was too scared to skate in the middle because of the fear of falling down...i always need to cling onto something for support.it reflected my life in some ways....i always depended a lot on my parents and especially my sister cause they are always there to help me out when i am in need...i may look independant but deep down, i am not.if i need help, my sister is there to help me out solve my problems.she is my solution and that why i really respect her for all the things she done for me.fear is something i learn too. strength, courage and confidence is gained by experience where you took the time by analyzing fear. If you say that you need to do the things that you think you cannot do, then you will accomplish that mission somehow or rather. this is what ice skating thought me.
Life is a succession of lessons, which must be lived to be understood.ice skating is about skating on a thin sheet of ice, the power is in your speed. you have control over everything but it's you who decide the outcome you want in your life. My will shall shape my future.its my choice, my responsibility..only i hold the key to my destiny!!!

recreational center

this is the day where I exercise and work out at the recreational center. its big place with good facillities and three basketball courts.i waited for the blue bus and saw all the girls. walking towards the rec. center. then the bus came and they ran to catch the bus. so funny looking at them...haha...so we boarded the bus and at last it stopped at the rec. center. did some workouts and then it was play time. basketball is the game now for me...haha...but this time, cara, keira and ammie joined in!!while playing i accidently bumped into ammie..i feel so bad!!!but she was standing on her feet which means she was okay!!thank god for that...
played the next game of basketball but this time it was full court...so tiring but i scored some amazing goals..haha...maybe luck was on me!!haha...i was pretty tired after that game and the 3rd game was the last i could take....i gave easy balls to opponents....especially ammie!!haha....and keira and cara always double team me so i lost the ball just like that!!its hard playing against girls..they have the advantage!!
so here i am wasting my time while waiting for my laundry...my english "inspiration" essay is done...i am out of new songs to listen to on youtube...so i guess blogging would essentially kill my waiting time!!i cannot wait until tomorrow cause i will be going to cincinnati for shopping!!its sounds like fun!!

heroes

heroes season 2 is back...i am seeing it right now in Dong's room!!its been a long time since i last watched tv...tv is my life...i watch practically everything from wah lai toi,cnn, epl league, cartoon network and etc....getting the opportunity to watch the new season of heroes here brings back memories..
there is a new character in heroes...quite scarry actually especially that girl who oozes black liquid from her eyes and kills people that way..eerie situation to be killed that way and disgusting too!!i wonder who came out with that idea though...
anyway, what if you were given a supernatural power...what do you want it to be?having the ability to withdraw cash sounds like a good option like that small kid,or maybe having split personality,or perhaps stopping time....each of them is unique and is useful in our lives but you cannot have them all...i already have a split personality so i won't want that. do not portray me like Ali Carter because i am not like her...haha...split personality for me is that whenever i am with my closest friends i talk a lot but with other outsiders i tend to be really quiet.that who i am...i would like be able to read people's mind..that would be cool isn't it?at least you get to read complex minds especially girls because it is confusing to be able to comprehand what is going on in heads...it would be ideal too to be sitting in a exam hall where you can just read what is going in their minds...its like copying answers but you will not get caught!how cool is that..there would be negative aspects towards this superpower because you will be reading millions of minds and that would be hazardous...i don't want to drown in people's misery thoughts!!!!
this is only my perception if i had superpowers...it will never happen in the world we live in!!but people will misuse this power and endanger the lives of millions in the world.it will be a catastrophe on Earth....for now my power lies in my strength of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid. Everyone is not lacking of strength instead they are lacking of will...

jungle jim's and yuan yuan birthday

what a day today...going to jungle jim in the afternoon and going for yuan yuan party at night.i was so busy...and i did not even study except for browsing through the articles for my international studies exam which is on tues.now i am panicking while blogging.
i didn't expect jungle jim to be so far, 45 minutes to be exact to reach there. and when we went there, there was no people!julian and me panicked because normally there will be a lot of people goign there.its an international market..the both of us went to mcmillan to ask but it was close. we was a bit afraid...but after seeing wynona little our international advisor at the opposite side of the road calm our nerves down a bit. had a nice chat with wynona about jungle jim's trip. i didn't know it will be that long to reach there. the last time it was so fast..maybe time flies while we are having fun but it becomes slower when we are bored.how i wish it was the opposite way round. upon reaching jungle jim's, we headed straight towards the international market....brought a few packets of sushi and some udon mee...i brought almost everything japanese..coz i was suppose to help chiharu buy snacks. to my amazement, i paid around $80 for a single receipt. that almost stunned me but well,at least i am working.its hard earning money...now i realise that. i finally understood the reason why dad always take out his money from his wallet like taking out gold from his pocket....i slept while on the way back...it was so tiring!!
then came the fun part...going to yuan yuan party..the birthday girl!!she looks so cute in the white dress...haha!!went over to thompson for the celebration. thompson room is so big and nice...with big plasma screen, foosball table and the best part...table hockey!!i totally thrashed QUAN in that game...haha!!and then there was china one meal..which was delicious because i had an empty stomach...had to watched "Step Up" movie...a movie more suitable for girls rather than boys...oh well,its her party isn't it??so yeah, got to live with it...the birthday cake came and we sang her a birthday song in mandarin..."jiu ni sheng zhe kuai le...and etc"...the cake was delicious....haha....continued watching the movie and took a few pictures with my camera for yuan yuan and her frens..then time for cleaning up and headed back to clawson...i bet she had a good time...i wonder how does it feels like to be in her shoes where friends celebrate parties for you...True friendship consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and value.her true friends are right beside her in Miami University...
at clawson, chatted with lamo dongyeun...fixing me up on a blind date...that is virtually stupid thing to do...haha...dong i am not into those kind of stuff..i lead a simple life and i am used to being alone...its so a part of my life that i can adapt with...it will not change in the past, it will not change in the present moment and in the future...do not worry..i always have my eyes on the stars and my feet is firmly on the ground..this is what you call balance from reality to idealistic world...

night at the library

what a night for me, i cannot imagine that i am in the library the whole night studying for the zoology exam and also writing and doing some research for international studies subject. to my amazement, there are a lot of people here studying too!!how nerdy can Americans be?haha, just joking!but seriously, studying in the library in the wee hours of the night really is a nightmare.but look at it this way, at least you can concentrate because there isn't any noise and you do not feel tired, and there are no distractions whatsover. I fell asleep while studying in my room, ;)...but in here i am quite awake!!i wonder why though..i have my blanket all ready to lie down after i finish studying.i hope that i will not repeat this ever again...library is officially my second home in Miami!!!

hypocrite

hypocrites...why do you hide your true self when you are what you are??u are not embarrassed when you smoke with your friends, you swear and curse all the time,even throwing nasty jokes on people and humilliating people seems to be your favourite past time, drinking alcohol weekly...why change and hide your personality when you are who you are?you are actually living in your own shadow because you are scared that they discover your true self...its a humilliating act and there is a word that goes by it: HYPOCRITES
to me, being your true self is what matters the most...if you are changing your personality to go with the crowd or influnced by peer pressure then you are not being true to your self. i understand that people sometimes change but to what extent?are you changing for the benefit of your self or just for the sake of someone else?it is just an excuse you are conjuring up because you want them to feel sorry for you and they will most probably pity you..you are just being deceitful, playing with people feelings.you do not deserve that pitiness...
~you are who you are and nothing you do will ever change that fact..."I start from where the world is, as it is, not as I would like it to be".remember this quote when you decide of changing your personality to suit your ideal environment!

the perfect combination!

the "perfect combo".exams and birthday!..well, it always happen to me...last year, the year before....every year seems to be like that!!why do my birthday always fall on exams week or where i have a hectic schedule ahead of me..i thought birthdays are suppose to be enjoying and fun celebrating with your closest one, enjoying the moment, making wishes, blowing candles...but not for me...i am thinking that somebody will be throwing me a surprise party but deep down inside, i will be worried and thinking about the exams the following day!its so disappointing to be felt that way..now, i am studying little by little so that i won't feel so guilty if i am enjoying myself on that day..i too have the right to enjoy myself....
let just wait and see to the final outcome on sun and after the hectic week is over..

a night to remember...

many of you may not know about the eclipse that happened on the Aug 28, 2007. i will remember this day forever in my life. this is because i stayed out the whole night just to see the moon. let me give u a brief description about it:
During a total lunar eclipse, the Moon's disk can take on a dramatically colorful appearance from bright orange to blood red to dark brown and (rarely) very dark gray.
that practically about it..
some might say that it is a ridiculous idea to stay up so late just to see the moon...but if you take a moment to visualize and ponder,when will you get the chance to see this sight again happening in your life?we may not be able to experience such a beautiful and wonderful moment that should be cherished forever. i feel that for once in my life i am able to ask someone out to enjoy the spectacular sight. we saw the moon setting out and saw the stars shining brightly upon us.it was so magical...
before i wrote this, i was browsing through the STAR magazine and i read about a dillemma by a guy. i feel that i am in his shoes right now, all the feelings trapped inside just waiting to set free. i am waiting for the right time to overcome my fear and tell her that i care for her. if i am not willing to do that, then i might as well be prepared to lose her..
i will end this off with giving you a part of Faridah advice..."It’s normal to fear rejection, but I believe it’s worse to let it stand in the way of at least trying for love."

a night day out...

this is quite ridiculous,into the 1st week of classes and i gone to a place to drink and also to a pub at uptown.but,drinking is not allowed for people who are under 21..so one good point there. i feel that those places doesn't fit me well. i don't fit into those crowds where they dance and stuff. just not me...somehow i feel there is a contrasting differences between me and my sister. my sister is quite outgoing, sociable and also fun, wheareas i am the type who is shy and quiet.
we went to Liz's apartment...there was a whole big crowd of people there who some i don't even know.instead of making friends and introducing myself...i just stood there like a lamp pole,doing absolutely nothing.sometimes i feel i am an outcast there.i think i did made eye contact and she noticed it but then i just can't find the courage to talk to her...something inside me that is just hidden. Maybe that the problem. if i just open up and say something, things will change..
most people are already one step ahead of me,and i feel that i am way behind....If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. I still have that dream.

all in a day's work

Its been two days since the new semester officially started. At first, i encountered many problems sceheduling for classes to fulfil this Miami Plan. arrgh! stupid system, need to fulfill the plan in order to graduate. After deciding on what I wanted to do, it was time for class.
1st class, ENG 109...feel so degrading...learning english all over again. American words and the words I used are different. So what?they mean the same thing don't they?anyway, went into the class and the teacher was quite weird. I feel that she is really really passionate in her work by the way she talked. I got teased for asking a silly question.
I quickly ran towards the next class. there were a 10 minute interval between the english class and the History of Western Arts class. I was already late when i stepped into the class..it seem like a nice class, learning about artefacts and monuments.(yea, i know...its a weird subject!)...i went to Campus Avenue Building to pay my fees...after that,i headed towards my next class which is the CSA class..the stupidest thing about this class is that you need to buy this Microsoft Word book to do the courses in the syllabus. Its not like I am computer illiterate or something..the book cost around US$ 105. going from bad to worse, it started raining..and che couldn't come over to eat dinner with me..However, i had to work and that was a whole thing altogether. working at the dining hall..its not that tough and it is easy money. When the dining hall closes, that when the hard work starts. Cleaning up people's mess = torture!in the night, not much activity...just reading the homework that was assigned. and lights off at 12.
next day..went into the physics class...which wasn't what i expected it to be. something about the education here is that it doesn't stress much on science, but also how to put it into good use.the physics teacher was kinda boring...haha...i tot physics was suppose to be fun. quickly walked towards international studies lecture hall.this particular subject has tonnes of reading man. hopefully i can cope with it(fingers crossed)..went to robertson hall to get my computer internet fixed...haihzz...ate dinner at alexander dining hall..and then here I am writing something on my blog.

in the states

whew,its been a long time since i last logged in to the Internet.in my room there seems to be a connection problem which sometimes gets on my nerves.its been a very exciting and i really learned a lot.i have never flew on my own outside my country and it opens up my world in a completely new perspective whatsoever.i feel that the people here are friendly and very open minded...now, let me recount the days...

day1..
i stayed at the Inn for a night.was really exhausted after travelling for so long.fortunately, the Inn had a great bed with nice plush cushions so i dozed off instantly after having a bath.in the morning, i had my breakfast with Qiao Wen, she is also a Malaysian staying in Penang...we took sokme nice pictures of the scenery near the Inn...at 10am, 2 guys picked us up to get our keys to our respective halls to put our luggage.after doing that,we went to McMillan hall to get our registration done...there was so many things to do today, like getting a phone number, going to the Health Services department to get our injection,banked in some money...apparently, Shriver Center is the only place to fill our empty stomachs.macaroni, sandwiches, and pizza are the only food they served here.i need to get used to it.we drove downtown to Walmart, this giant shopping complex which sells practically everything..and its cheap...practically that what i did that day..was really tired and slept very early.

the next day, was pretty boring too..i met glenn and ben who are the Peer Assistance in my hall called Clawson Hall.they are both local..it was so boring that i had to find Qiao Wen in Emerson Hall, a couple of blocks away from where i stay.the cinemas here are bad man!i feel that back home GSC or TGV is way more better compared to here. i don't really fancy the Simpsons movie because the jokes are sometimes pretty lame...this guy from Thailand, Sin fell asleep in the movie...after the movie, just headed home and that about it

day3...
i was really hungry and i walked all the way to Shriver Center to get some breakfast...can't wait for the dining hall downstairs to open..over here,there are many people from China who come here to study business school..must be that there heard that this business school is one of the best public ivy league in the states...in the night, we went to the drive in movie to watch Rush Hour 3..really funny movie starring Jackie Chan and the ever-witty Chris Tucker who is really humorous to hear..this guy, drove us back to our dorms and he was talking to us about cars..i really liked his iphone man, its like the newest and coolest gadget to have right now.

finally, today is the orientation for international students..its really amazing to see so many international students in this campus..went to Walmart again because its part of the programme which i signed up..After that, the POL people dropped us off at our dorms and this Korean guy, Dong asked me to keep his stuff in his room.i forgotten that i was going out and there was some stuff which needs to be kept in the fridge...on the way, i met Sean and he gave me a lift to the IT department..but it was closed..darn!...this place is huge and you could get lost if you don't have a map with you...i was practically freaked out and i called Sean again to ask where he was..at last i found him and we went to uptown to eat our lunch...we went to this place which sells buffalo wings..sound weird right?yea,u guess it right, where Jessica Simpson misunderstood that it was the wings of a buffalo..the place was quite cool. i had a shrimp and chicken. next, we went to Jungle Jim's which is an international market but it really didn't impress me much..there was nothing that international about that store...took a few hours of rest and we headed towards Sean gathering.his apartment is pretty cool...the best part is where we get to eat free pizza..nothing to complain about...

the things that impress me most here is that the way the people speak. i feel kinda weird coz they can't understand anything i say. i need to repeat it twice for them to completely understand what i am trying to say.maybe i mumble..besides that, the people here are very outspoken..its very easy to go up to someone and introduce themselves...i think is ridiculous that drinking isn't allowed below the age of 21. its a stupid rule.
so yea, that practically all i have to describe about here..its n ot that happening here but i feel that its alright and i can easily adapt to this environment.there maybe a few exciting stuff that i left behind but i can't seem to remember.
adios guys..

if u guys don't know still, i am currently working at 1utama new wing padini at the vincci store...its been three days since i worked there... i met many new collegues of mine and i feel that they are very nice to me...i know that sometimes they may be harsh but this is how work is isn't it?oh yea,bridget bro is also working there too...so we kinda connected...haha...
while working i met many people; long lost friends,college friends who never speak at all and very close friends!!all of them was a bit surprised when they saw me working there...don't get me wrong the reason why i choose vincci is not because i get to see a lot of "leng lui" but that is the only place that would hire me for one month..i was rejected in every shop i go!!however, today was a bit different, i saw my "friend" there..i couldn't muster a word because i was too busy and i don't know what to say...why does it always happen to me...before i knew it she was out of the door!how very sad...*sobz*
on the 1st day it was a bit tiring because i wasn't use to standing for a long period..but now i seem to be able to handle it...but the thing that i don't like the most is customers choosing like 7 pairs of shoes and not buying any of them..how irritating is that?and after that i need to keep it back again..do you know how frustating is that??mention customers rights and i will understand..but what the heck man!!there is also may customers that i can describe but there would be a whole long list!!besides that major flaw work is kinda fun!!imagine i am working now and money is so important..i now realise why dad always put on a long face when i asked him for money..now i understand...it takes a whole lot of effort and time to earn that money..i am truly sorry and i apologize if i spent your money on unneccessary things..

part time work

wat a tiring day it was..first need to go to college to return this stupid book. mrs.ng, my sis primary school teacher drop me at the bus stop at kelana jaya station.When i reach college, i saw robert, yoke hon and he xin selling books...there was a whole stack of books in his car.unfortunately,i don't think he sold any today!!maybe business will be better tommorow.i also saw sher ling cousin, haha!but i forgotten her name already.Next, i went for lunch and i stumbled across edgar and his chick,A Kar Mun look-a-alike.Her dressing exactly like hers.Like everybody else,i was quickly ushered away so that they will have their peaceful time together.so i went back to the "stall". a few minutes alter, the upod bus came and i quickly hopped on it.reached 1utama and walked around 1utama just to find part time job. got a bit frustrated when a lot of them rejected me just because i wil only be working for a month...giordano to name a few.saw adam mazlan and he told me about the news that is happening in BB....continued scouting for job and finally i found one at vincci...fill up the form and ~tadah~ i am a sales promoter.was heading towards home when i bumped into amresh and aaron kumar. apparently they also found work there with higher pay!i won't tell u where they are working...but all i can say is they are working at 1utama.perhaps with a bit of luck u will find him. hehe.followed them to buy their clothes. dad call and got to go home.
tomorrow will be a big day for me...first time working at vincci. first appearance really does matter and i hope i will get along with my colleagues well....and also to have a perfect start on my first day attending work and every other day.

for one more day

after enduring for nearly a month, exam is due to finish on friday. its the most stressful month i ever endured. i could give my own perception on the test but it would just destroy the whole meaning of holidays.so i will just remain quiet and not discuss on whatever that is related to studies. its a very subjective topic and much debate can arise from there. After chemistry we went to the curve to see a movie.ate lunch at sakae sushi...i remember the last time i went there,jasmine belanja me....but not now..i need to fork out my own pocket money and there..*poof*..wallet went empty except some remainder cash.how am i gonna survive for fri??haihzz..the movie we saw was 200 pounds beauty.at the beginning it was really quite boring..the fat girl singing backstage and being replace by a stunning beauty on stage.the storyline is somewhat true..guys classifies girls in 3 ways...hot..natural and totally not worth seeing. but who are we to judge them.try being in their shoes, how would you feel when if u were treated as a outcast..i do believe that everybody have their own special personality which makes one special. we should not categorize them by the way they look or by the way they dress.another thing that strikes me in the show that is happening in real life is the most precious things we tend to ignore when we become famous or rich.As we pursue our dreams to acheive great heights of success we ignore our parents lose our closest buddies. is it really worth to achieve all that but ignore we lose out more than we gain?i rather choose the other option and stick with my roots than going around losing each friends each day...this show is really awakening call to everybody.
after the movie, we headed towards baskin robbins..*sobz*..i had not enough cash to pay for an icecream...so i had to watch everybody indulge themselves with icecreams...after icecream is goodbye!!heng yong drove kar mun, yvonne, jason and me home. however, he forgotten the route to my house. maybe you can try next time heng yong!!haha

dejected

its a really bitter way to take the pill but nevertheless i just had to swallowed it...this exam is really a wake up call for me for my preparations for my a2 exams...i know that i haven't gave my all for this exam and i hope that for this one month or so i will catch up on what i left out for my studies....maybe i shoudn't wait until the last minute...somehow or rather some things just don't go well for me....let me give a situation,i am interested in physics and longed to be an engineer before but i need a strong foundation in maths which i don't have it....so that career is well off my mind...i am also interested in food science but then my chemistry is practically hopeless...accounting perhaps??well, that will be the last thing on my mind!!!i am only stuck with a business related subject which i am stil searching...i think when the right time comes i think that will be d-day that i am finally enthusiatic on studying something that i truly love...i hope that when the time comes i will be passsionate on it and it will lead me to a greener life for years to come....now, i have made a vow on myself...erase this solemn chapter for this year...strive to improve myself...and work hard!!
When night falls and the stars filled the sky,i will be thinking that those stars resemble my highest aspiration..I may not reach them but I can look up and admire their beauty, believe in them, and try to make it happen...If i lose hope, somehow i know that i will lose the vitality that keeps life moving,i will lose that courage to be, that persistence and the courage that helps me go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream...;]

dreams

it took a long time to upload the tgen website, and finally when it did an error came out!!imagine waiting there for so long, my hand was trembling, heart beating as if i ran 2km and an error came out..haihzz...guess i need to postpone it to another day..even though i haven't check yet, but my instinct tells me that the results ain't good...as always..~sigh~...if only things were better off for me,i wonder what it feels like to have good results..."will my mum stop nagging me to study and instead i will have the freedom to go out whenever i want??;will i have a scholarship that my parents will be proud of?..;will my friends come to me when they need a question to be answered??...will i be contented with the results i have but cursing myself for the careless mistakes i made that cost me my marks??;these are the few questions i ponder as I reflect myself if things changed for me...i rememeber a saying...:You see things; and you say, "Why?" But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?.."this is my ultimate dream...Without leaps of imagination, or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning.
in reality, i think that is virtually impossible...but i have never once doubted my ability to achieve great heights..maybe one day it will happen to me, maybe it won't...but whatever the outcome is i am proud that i am optimistic and and this is what inspires me to carry on with my life without any regrets...Life can be found only in the present moment. The past is gone, the future is not yet here, and if we do not go back to ourselves in the present moment, we cannot be in touch with ourself...

maybe one day?

its been a long time since i last updated my blog...quite busy with exams and to make matters worse my comp got virus at the wrong time just when my holidays start...a2 trial exams was so tough,all those new topics for chemistry and physics..and my accounting was totally blown away..didn't know how to do a single thing at all, juz imagine objective questions and u shoot like 40% of the questions...haihzzz...the only bright spot is maths...compared to the beginning of the year where my maths was like completely hopeless and now it becomes one of the subject i am looking forward to score...i will end now of the exams part coz u won't want to know too much...haha...
i was thinking something when i watched the final episode of "moving on"...sometimes u feel u want a special someone in your life but u don''t know where to find it...but if u look glance at the side,the special someone is right there waiting for u to ask that simple question...how bizzarre is that dun you think?? bet some of you feel that way too...maybe if you just give it a try who knows??another thing i think maybe occurs to you and obviously occurs to me too...is that u know that she is right for you but u just don't have the guts to tell her those three words....and in the end she falls for another guy and you end up cursing yourself for it...if you just have the courage she will be yours forever!!
ok i think that all i have to write about...it may sound a bit boring...

fri night..

i will forever remember this day man, the crazy stuff we did. Firstly, we played badminton and i got a beating by jason and lee kian! imagine dat, how embarassing was that?but can't blame me, because daniel was my partner. p.s:it is not an excuse, is the fact. but overall badminton was quite fun. somebody should remind robert that smash isn't the only thing in badminton, there is drop, lob and etc.....next, we went to eat steamboat...omg dat the part where the most interesting happen. i think this secret will remain with heng yong 4ver:he reverse too much and bang the car. luckily the car wasn't dented but i think he cares more on the bmw.haha..moving on, ebing hungry as we are, we whallop food and gossip about the characteristics of amresh. to be frank,he has so many lines that everybody knows it by hard...soon we will be hit by amresh virus..haha.the steamboat was quite good considering the amount of food we ate. three big plates of prawn and various kinds of seefood.walao, didn't eat so much steamboat in my life b4.i bet the owner will put up a sign saying no PE7 2006/2007 students.robert is like the king of prawns...crazy guy!then, we headed towards heng yong hse, yvonne and elaine are so addicted to pool now, there will do anything just to play it.sat in heng yong posh bmw car.there is only one word to describe the car SUPERB!!suspension and acceleration is a beauty.the work of art.we played pool for a while and tyson, lee kian , jason and jumped into the pool.finally, it was getting late and had to head back home. a really enjoyable day.

boring week!!

was just wondering and dreaming around throughout the whole week and i finally struck my mind that there is something i can write for this week!! let's see, i am really sad for "J" because he is so depressed with the things that is going around with his life..he is not his usual self and i think he really is saddened by this...i hope that he is able to bounce back and carry on being him again...we really miss his jokes and he ever-happy look!! ;) moving on,I realized that pool and foosball really hurts deep in the pockets.thurs itself i am out of cash as a result of overspending..need to control my spending from now on..haihzz...these are the only thing that i think is worth mentioning this week..maybe next time??

AS results

fri was like the most anxious day of my life, is like my whole life depends on it..everybody in class in pe7 was like thinking about the results...and i expected the worst but actually it came out to be quite a blessing to me..i think i obtained very good results for my business subject but then my sciences is so screwed up...i think i am more suitable for business oriented subjects..i finally believed that beneath the dark tunnel there will always be a silver lining...believing is something,to do it is another matter..now, i dun even know whether to retake the subjects or juz stick with it...it can be stressful to study it again...i shall now juz use my heart but follow my instinct...haha...hopefully the this time the tide will change...all the bless!!

They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

well, time flies so fast dis week,when u just blink your eyes, one week is over and now comes the second week...scarry thought...knowing that yr exams results is coming out real soon, to be exact on the 19th...oh well, i can only hope and pray for the ebst but i will expect the worse coz i know it will never happen to me..but i do believe in miracles...maybe it will happen to me one day or rather!!oh well, guess this week agenda was quite nice...palyed a lot of pool and foosball!!i even beat daniel in pool, wat a surprise!!haha...and the best of all, i did the unbelievable this week...usually sat and sun will be the time i sleep throughtout the morning buti actually woke up like 8 on sat to go to bukit kiara...quite impress with myself...and on sun, I together with dad went to the market...was quite stunned by the huge crowd at then market...i guess that there is a whole lot of things to do in the morning rather than sleeping...haha...maybe i should practise this more often...i will write it down as my new year resolutions...hehe...but one thing i regretted is missing out on badminton, i need to exact my revenge on wei huang...next time dude!!

They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

well, time flies so fast dis week,when u just blink your eyes, one week is over and now comes the second week...scarry thought...knowing that yr exams results is coming out real soon, to be exact on the 19th...oh well, i can only hope and pray for the ebst but i will expect the worse coz i know it will never happen to me..but i do believe in miracles...maybe it will happen to me one day or rather!!oh well, guess this week agenda was quite nice...palyed a lot of pool and foosball!!i even beat daniel in pool, wat a surprise!!haha...and the best of all, i did the unbelievable this week...usually sat and sun will be the time i sleep throughtout the morning buti actually woke up like 8 on sat to go to bukit kiara...quite impress with myself...and on sun, I together with dad went to the market...was quite stunned by the huge crowd at then market...i guess that there is a whole lot of things to do in the morning rather than sleeping...haha...maybe i should practise this more often...i will write it down as my new year resolutions...hehe...but one thing i regretted is missing out on badminton, i need to exact my revenge on wei huang...next time dude!!

Light tomorrow with today!

phew, i actually endured one whole year in taylors and there is half year to go!!tommorow is like the day where everything will go wrong or everything will go as planned. you see, i expected this coming, who wouldn't??if u haven't finish the work you are supposed to do during the long break from holidays...well, a great year to start college don't u think?"somebody" will be shouting as usual and scolding all of us, particularly me!!the story goes on...and i will probably be criticize once again...its a normal thing for me but one day i hope to prove it to her!!
mayb those are the things that i expect will be coming for me, but who cares, i get to meet the whole pe7 gang after a long holiday break...jeremy with his endless jokes,", robert: "tutor boy", yoke hon my seefoo, amresh trashing talk, lee kian the big one, jason the dou son, daniel a die hard liverpool fan,heng yong the "richie rich", tyson the "hungry person", kye ling the pretty one, elaine the anxious one, kar mun the "cool girl", joanne the "left handy", sher ling "accounts queen", yvonne the "good one"...and most importantly the back benchers: khee wei, yan yan, wei huang, and zhiyi...
*p.s hope u all dun mind if i write those things about u*

Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquaintance..

looking back,i really did value becoming the O.C for this project...it was truly meaningful as i met many new frens from those 4 schools,it was like one big happy family....for example,
tmn sea: kye ling, my long lost fren from camp,was superb in helping us wrapped the presents(oso for the stars), phee chien who suddenly was on top of me with his stupid badge~AJBK~, chuo tung who came almost everday to helped out, jit yang, with his endless jokes at the booth, chee kong who operated to his maximum but some how or rather his spirit ended when "somebody" wasn' there..and su faye, so called president who talk the most and work the least...and to other ppl who oso contibuted for this event...

moving on, dj: wai kar, at 1st she was kinda scared but after a while her belang showed...it was real fun teasing her on the special tactic for the hair, she was oso quite demanding too...asking me to belanja..haihz....u c i am so kind...lyn, she was almost simillar wif wai kar only that she wrapped most of the presents, haha...and oso lee keng, who only came once for the santarina!

assunta: yi may, who helped me get the orphanages names, boon may who sponsored a lot for the event...thanks...dun worry i forgive u coz i know u are very busy...suzanna, oso my long lost fren from camp, she has a nickname i cannot remember...came on the last day but show her talent in wrapping....

lasalle klang:benjamin who says he got some hidden talent in wrapping but it never shows, guess its hidden, keik wee the black sheep of lasalleklang, always at the stall helping out and wrapping...gary who always asking me to take a chill pill...haha

leo pji:lawrence who fetch me back after the event, jing chen who came by the stall to ask us for lunch, weng siong who helped me to count the stock, played foosball and pool, ming kim who was always there when i needed help, choong fu who always helped to make the area super clean, and other ppl

This project will not be successful without u guys..its true dat when they say dat we don't accomplish anything in this world alone ... and whatever happens is the result of the whole tapestry of one's life and all the weavings of individual threads from one to another that creates something.

xmas bazaar and wishing tree project...

It was an uphill task trying to get a venue to carry out this project. Finally, we all agreed to have it at Subang Parade, Subang Jaya who was willing enough to give us a place. The management gave us a condition that we had to fulfilled; come out with 3 people, one for Santa Claus, and two for Santarina on the 16th, 17th, 23rd , and 24th. Instead of organizing a project, I unwillingly had to lead three projects. During the meeting, I told everyone the details of this project. They were impressed with the effort I put in. This project was called “Wishing Tree and Christmas Bazaar”

Because we had very little manpower, we had to appeal for other schools to help us out. We need to write a formal letter to the school in order for them to help. Fortunately, there was a very good response as 4 sister clubs volunteer to help us. We held a meeting and I explained to them the objective of this project. Since it was Christmas I wanted it to be more significant. I hope that this Christmas every orphan could have a present. Then, I call the orphanages to see whether there are interested with my project. I got 2 orphanages who willingly gave me their names of the orphans.

15th of December came very quickly. That night I could not sleep as I lie in bed thinking of the tasks I had to overcome for tomorrow. Luckily, a lot of members helped out to set up the stall. Our supplier, Tang’s Art also came in time to give us the wrapping paper, Christmas cards and many more. From 10am – 10pm we worked to our greatest limit. The feedback we got from the shoppers was awesome. Many people were interested in doing charity for the orphans this Christmas. On the 3rd day, I had to find 4 more orphanages as the response was good. This project lasted for 9 days. The Santa and Santa Rina project also went well. I realize that this project could not be successful without my fellow members and my parents supporting me. Consider it as my first project; I think that this project is very meaningful. I could not believe that I have actually accomplished something which I taught from the beginning was a burden. Next, we had to deliver the presents to the orphanage. We deliver it on Christmas day itself. It was such joy to see the look on the orphans. I agreed that Christmas is the time of the year where by brightening other lives, bearing each other burdens, easing other’s load and supplanting empty hearts and lives with generous gifts becomes the magic of Christmas. My Lion Advisor, Lion Ivan Ho praise me for my commitment towards this project.

Finally, the whole project ended and I took time to reflect on myself. I have learned to accept responsibilities as I know that with courage I will dare to take risks, have the strength to be compassionate and the wisdom to be humble. Now, I discovered that by accomplish great things I must not only act, but also dream; not only plan but to believe in myself.